Notes From the Nerd's Notebook: Top 10 Phobias

Good morning geeks, nerds and gamers,

Recently I did a little soul searching and found that a few of my fears were somehow manifesting themselves in some manner or another. In order to introduce a new mini series, I'll share my own fear (phobias) and some of my infatuations (philias). However, before we move on to that, what exactly does fear mean? According to Merriam-Webster fear is an unpleasant emotion caused by being aware of danger, or it can also be defined as a feeling of respect and wonder for something very powerful. The full definition is an unpleasant and often strong emotion caused by anticipation or awareness of danger. So with that in mind, I'll name my top ten fears (1 being the thing I avoid the most, and 10 being feared but tolerable) and why I possess that particular fear.

10. Phronemophobia (Fear of Thinking): Now, I'm not afraid of thinking, in fact I quite enjoy it. However, it's what I think about that concerns me. My generally darker thoughts and frightening visions only seen by my inner eyes, from which only a potent source of light can extricate me, sometimes scare me and sometimes inspire me. This is why phronemophobia is number ten.

9. Atychiphobia (Fear of Failure): I seriously doubt that there are many people who aren't afraid of failure. Based on the standards that both school and society have thrust upon us, it's easy to see that many people including myself fear failure because it leads to loss. Loss of social connections and eventually loss of self. Personally, failure doesn't bother me, as we learn from failure, until said failures start costing me dearly.

8. Nyctophobia (Fear of the Dark): You know that old saying goes, "There's nothing to fear except fear itself." but what happens when the very embodiment of fear surrounds us? Hilariously, I'm no longer afraid of the dark itself. In fact, I find solace being cuddled up in the dark. I do, however, fear what may lie in the dark. Endless possibilities of many shadow creatures that lie and wait for the perfect opportunity to strike. I fear being alone in the darkness.

7. Automotonophobia (Fear of Ventriloquist's Dummies, Animatronic Creatures and Wax Statues): I found myself questioning why I feared this. I quite enjoy popular stand-up ventriloquist Jeff Dunham, and I am completely obsessed with the Five Nights at Freddy's franchise. So why do I have automotonophobia? Because I watch too much television, I suppose. From the Weeping Angels from Doctor Who, to famed horror film House of Wax and everything in between. But even before I could speculate this, I remember my family frequenting Chuck E. Cheese throughout my childhood, but that dreaded mascot always made me uneasy.

6. Coulrophobia (Fear of Clowns): I hate clowns. I want to kill clowns. It doesn't ease my fear that clowns are no longer the embodiment joy that reside underneath the big top of a circus. Psychopaths masquerade as clowns in the dead of night and roam free, stalking the shadows as Killer Clowns. Well, you know what they say...when life gives you lemons, kill a clown.

5. Acrophobia (Fear of Heights): Simply put, I've watched too many movies where a majority of deaths occurred by falling from massive heights. Earthquakes, tornados, being with super powers, and et cetera, or just sheer dumb luck in movies generally just off many people. And you know what? It messes with your head eventually.

4. Atelophobia (Fear of Never Being Enough): This is a relationship based fear. You fall in love with someone, and they with you, everything is perfect. Right? Until all they can see is your flaws. That's where this phobia comes in.

3. Arachnophobia (Fear of Spiders): Now this one makes my skin crawl just thinking about it. I loathe spiders. In fact, the most terrifying creature I have ever seen is the Goliath Bird-Eater Spider. That thing with ruin someone's day...especially if you're a bird...or an arachnophobe like me. What is it about spiders though? I love Spider-Man, so why am I so deathly afraid of spiders? Is it the venom? The way that some spiders are so small they're almost imperceptible with venom that can literally eat away at your skin? You know what... let's not. Moving on!

2. Autophobia (Fear of Being Abandoned): I have no issues with solitude. Its getting attached to someone and having them either drop me, or just fall off the map. Its something I've been dealing with for a while. My cure? Enjoy my antisocial nature. However it's that antisocial nature of mine that kind of fuels my number one phobia.

1. Athazagoraphobia (Fear of Being Forgotten or Ignored): Being ignored is fun as long as you're not attached to the person, in my personal opinion. But being forgotten is something that has been bugging me since childhood. I never want to be forgotten, whether its for being seeming like a detached intellectual, or a kind hearted goofball, or just "that kind I went to high school with that had a bright purple Mohawk." Yes...I had a purple Mohawk, and was damn proud of it. But I have this immortal need to make my mark in almost anyway I can.

Page From the Nerd's Notebook: Languages I Find Attractive

Good evening nerds, geeks and gamers,

First things first: I am a nerd to the core. Linguistics, or things dealing with languages, have always had my attention. In actuality, Spanish was my first language, but I lost all reason to speak it. Despite being hindered vocally, I can still understand what is being discussed in the language. My second was English, and I speak this the most fluently. These are languages I find attractive and why. As a bonus, I'll throw in whether or not I am learning or planning on learning the language.

1. Czech: In all honesty, I was working on a novel for publication and in my books, I like my main characters to be foreign. While trying to come up with a nationality for my beloved character, I was on the maps app on my iPod and came across a country called Czech Republic, and shortly thereafter, I kind of developed an obsession with all things Czech which is still strong today, though I'm surprised that I don't listen to any Czech bands. It's a bit strange. In any case, I am currently learning the language

2. French: Don't ask why, but I honestly feels like this is one of the most romantic languages you can converse with me in (the first being Czech, obviously), and my love for the language was actually instilled in me by m mother, whom is fluent in English, Spanish and French. The love for the language was brought out by the song Radio Song by the French band Superbus. Now I'm planning on learning it.

3. ASL (American Sign Language): There was something I always found really cool about conversing using gestures and passes with your hands, arms and fingers. I was first truly introduced to this style of linguistics on the show Switched at Birth, and I was merely captivated by the way they held conversations with gestures, and how fast they performed these gestures. I am currently learning ASL.

4. Japanese: Originally, it was because I am an Otaku and I want to watch anime without reading the subtitles, even though I love reading subtitles.

Notes From the Nerd's Notebook: Super Power Breakdown: Primordial Fire Manipulation

Good morning nerds, gamers and geeks,

Today's power to be discussed is Primordial Fire Manipulation. Now before we begin, let me just say that there are different branches of fire manipulation. For example, there is dark fire, holy fire, hell fire, esoteric fire, blue fire, white fire, et cetera. Yes, we will be discussing the different kinds of fire manipulation in other posts, but let's go ahead and get started.

Primordial Fire is the fire that was used in from the dawn of creation and is the progenitor of all fire. This means that this fire and can't be extinguished by conventional methods. Hilariously enough, other than the user willing it so, the only other way to extinguish Primordial Fire is by using Primordial Water. One place that is bathed in Primordial Fire is Muspelheim (Norse Mythology) and a few users are Surtr (Norse Mythology), Angi (Hinduism), and the Phoenix Force (Marvel Comics)

Powers that come from possessing Primordial Fire Manipulation are Fire Manipulation, Fire Energy Manipulation, Life Fire Manipulation, and my personal favorite: Ultimate Burning. Of course, this power can be associated with Chaos Manipulation, Primordial Element/ Forces Manipulation, Primordial Entity Physiology, Conceptual Fire Manipulation and Fire Embodiment. Like I said, we'll discuss the different kinds of fire manipulation, and elemental manipulations.

There is only one limitation to this power, and it is one of the deadliest limitations. Because of the fire's ancient and primal nature, possessing true control over it may be incredibly difficult and be an extreme danger to the user.

Gamer's Guide To Survival Horror: Tips for Surviving Outlast

Good morning gamers, nerds and geeks,

Welcome back to the Nerd's Notebook, and today we're turning to Chapter One in the Gamer's Guide: Survival Horror. Outlast is a horror game wherein you can't fight back, but you have to use your quick wits to survive, surrounded by insane patrons, creepy religious cults, machete wielding nudists and Piggy. In all honesty, it's a great game and it scared the absolute hell out of me. Anyway, here are some tips to get you through the game fairly unscathed.

1. Collect and Conserve Batteries: In Mount Massive Asylum, there are more than many dark areas and rooms, and more often than not, you will have to traverse the darkness with the only source of light at times being the night vision mode on your camera. To my knowledge, you can hold up to ten batteries at a time, and the night vision mode runs through the battery's life fairly quick, so you're going to have to carry more than one.

2. Don't Be Afraid To Explore: Ironically enough, you're only means of self defense are running and hiding, but you shouldn't be afraid to explore, because that is how you'll come across batteries, hiding spots, and documents that will thrust you deeper into the game's lore and story.

3. Always Stay Thinking: In this horror game, things will often go awry and you'll need to adjust your game plan just a bit in order to survive. Stay on your toes and always have a back up plan.

4. Run, Hide, and Wait For Your Life: As I have said, Outlast and Outlast: Whistleblower are purely survival horror, meaning you have literally no means of self defense. This ties into my second point;  ninety-five percent of the inhabitants of the asylum will attack you if they see you, resulting in a chase.

5. Know When To Run Past Your Foe: Many of the enemies in the asylum will kill you in three to four strikes, given their weapons are blunt. The Doctor will this massive shears will kill you in two or three strikes. The machete wielding nudists will kill you in two strikes. Piggy (and he is the easiest to discern because you meet him as the first real foe and he address you as "little pig") is a one-hit killer.

Notes From the Nerd's Notebook: Super Power Breakdown: Assailant

Good evening nerds, gamers, and geeks.

Today's power we will be discussing is the power of Assailant, which is a fate placed on those whom are known to steal, capture, conquer or destroy the world. Other names for Assailants are Corrupted Ones, Dark Ones, Destroyers or even Chaos Bringers. Well known assailants are Apep (Egyptian Mythology), Ganondorf (The Legend of Zelda), Satan, Surtr the Fire Giant (Nordic Mythology), and Nyralathotep (Chthulu Mythos) as seen in the photograph above.

Powers that come with being an Assailant are Dark Heart, Enhanced Combat, Supernatural Condition and Enhanced Senses, Evil Embodiment, Fear Masking, Indomitable Will, and sometimes Magic.

Such as with all powers and abilities, Assailant has a few limitations and weaknesses. Evil nature tends to be the downfall, as good always triumphs. Assailants are often times narrow-minded, as they only think about destruction and domination. And depending on their level of power, they may grow insane and unstable, dangerous to all as well as themselves.

Page From The Geek's Guide: Ten More Fictional Characters I Would Love To Be

Good afternoon nerds, gamers, and geeks and welcome back to the Nerd's Notebook. Today is the part two to a past post that made. Let's jump right in. In no particular order, we have:

1. The Members of Dumbledore's Army (J.K Rowling's Harry Potter Series): The members over Dumbledore's Army in the iconic Harry Potter series by renowned author, J. K Rowling, grew stronger under the command of Harry Potter, as did Harry himself. Those that survived the great battle at the end grew to be some of the strongest. Besides that, magic has always been something that's amazing to me that I like to read about, write about and learn about, but not to practice...unless I was a student at Hogwarts.

2. Dracula (Bram Stoker's Dracula): If you haven't read the first post, then you don't know that if I could choose anything nonhuman to be, I'd be a vampire first, then werewolf, and perhaps a dhampir (vampire-werewolf hybrid). For me to become Dracula, is for me to become the primordial nosferatu. The first vampire and one created by such an amazing author.

3. Celena Sardothien (Sarah J. Maas' Throne of Glass series): An infamous assassin with extensive knowledge of poison, enhanced intelligence, and amazing fighting skills. Seriously, thank you Sarah J. Maas for creating such an amazing character. You can find a post on this book in my reading blog, the-page-master.blogspot.com

4. Any Member of the Bat Family (DC Comic Continuity): All I will say is seriously...beware for those that bear the mark of the bat and fight alongside the Dark Knight and are a member of his estranged crime fighting family. Challenging any one of them will not end well.

5. Greco-Roman, Norse, Egyptian, Japanese and Slavic Gods and Goddesses (Mythologies): I love studying mythologies and the gods and goddesses that are in each respective mythology, so for me to have the powers of some chosen deities and minor deities would be amazing, though dangerous for them that may cross me.

6. Alisa Perne (Christopher Pike's Thirst Series): Alisa Perne kicks butt as a vampire, and Christopher Pike did an excellent job putting us as the reader into the shoes of a vampire woman.

7. Carrie (Stephen King's Carrie): The power of telekinesis was Carrie's most powerful and only weapon which was completely and terrifyingly unlocked at the end of the novel, because she murdered many of her former classmates when she snapped and her powers raged out of control. This can also be found as a separate post in my reading blog the-page-master.blogspot.com.

8. Lestat (Anne Rice's Interview With a Vampire/ Queen of the Damned): Another vampire that, in the movie Queen of the Damned (godofthearts.blospot.com), was the lead singer of an amazing metal band, whose songs from the soundtrack were written and performed by some great bands. But still...vampire...metal. Grade A awesomeness.

9. Number Four (Pittacus Lore's I Am Number Four): To have powers and to be hunted is something I always thought would make my life way more interesting than it already is. And that's just what happens in I Am Number Four by Pittacus Lore.

10. The Deities of the Cthulu Mythos (H.P Lovecraft's Chthulu Mythos): As I have said before, I love to study mythologies and right now I am heavily into Slavic Mythology, Nordic Mythology, and the Lovecraftian mythos named after his own creations. The famous author of Cosmic Horror, created grotesque and strange deities that are Eldritch in practice and horrifying in reality.

Top Ten Favorite Gen. 1 Pokemon

Good morning bones, ghouls and mundane friends,

Welcome back to My Gothic Mind. I am your host, Nightmare: the Prince of Phobias. I love Pokémon, and I haven't played a Pokémon game in forever and that depresses me, but something I have been really into lately is Pokémon Fusions. That will be its own list, but for now we'll just go through ten of my favorite Pokémon and why they are my favorite. Let get started!

10. Fearow: Remember the show and original game? When you'd evolve your Spearow and it would evolve into that massive bird, thing? Yeah. Fearow was just something I would love to just have on my shoulders or just walking behind me, because I love to freak people out. I'm strange I know, but seriously, Fearow. Massive bird. Amazing.

9. Vileplume: This Pokemon is at number nine, because it was just adorable to me, even as a kid, and I always searched for a Gloom just to get it to evolve. I had an Odish, but for some reason it refused to evolve.

7. Kadabra/ Alakazam: I love Psychic-types, and these two were the ones that were just awesome to me, even as a kid. I remember watch the original show and Ash was in Saffron City (I believe that where they were, I can't remember at the moment) and he went to battle Sabrina and her Abra evolved into a Kadabra and just wrecked Pikachu sideways. And Alakazam is just powerful and amazing. Not just that, but their names are the words used in cheap magic tricks. Abra-Kadabra, or Alakazam. I'm surprised their isn't one named Open Sesame.

6. Rapidash: It's a freaking horse on fire. Dude, you'd look like a Ghost Rider if you rode that into battle or war, or something. But either way, I've had this small fascination with horses, Rapidash and Ponyta in particular. The thought of riding a flaming horse was always interesting to me.

5. Primeape: This thing is as fiery as I am, but nowhere near as controlled as I, kicking buttocks and doing whatever. The fact that he  just sucker punched Ash (even though he is my favorite character in all of cartoons) just made me laugh.

4. Golem: Golem looks like some kind of monster that would just ruin your entire day if you angered it, and I could never get one and that bothered me, because I love it. Yes, it's a favorite, because it looks like it would wreck anyone.

3. Marowak: The Pokedex entry for this and pre-evolution were just dark to me and I just love the bone mask, and bone weaponry.

2. Haunter/ Gengar: My all time favorite type will always and forever be Ghost. And you'll never get ghostlier than these two. Haunter is the epitome of haunting and all things creepy. Gengar will hide as your shadow and steal your freaking soul! I love that!

1. Dragonair: There is only one type that I love more than ghost and that is dragon. Dragonair is majestic and beautiful, and just extremely dangerous. Wow, I just want a butt ton of Dratini eggs, just to evolve them into Dragonairs...if anything I'd only have only one Dragonite.